elijah challenge

today was the first day of the elijah challenge seminar and it was qt an eye opener i guess... like i never knew that like EVERYONE has the authority to heal. i thot like only the pastors or like u noe... those really holy types or those with the giftings and stuff... but like now i know that hey! ive been given the authority to heal too! its like really scary tho as me and estehr were saying. i think it really does need alot of faith to be able to stand before pple and like rebuke illnesses liek that. and of cos there is the questions like what if God doesnt want the person to be healed and like i dunno i think if everyone hu wants to be healed can get healed den like wun doctors be obsolete? i dunno... i mean medicine has its place rite? its not tt i dun think that healing is real and that it exisit today but i guess a part of me cant help but be skeptical. like i dunno. today was like knee and back healings and stuff and i really dunno if those pple were really healed or they just wanted to think tt they were? i gues its qt bad of me to be so doubting but like i geuss when u see the videos of the pple hu can walk and stuff yah tt is qt compelling evidence lah... but somehow its like in my mind tt this kinda miracles do not happen here. like they are for other places... i dunno y but its like i cant imagine miracles happening in our church. my faith is so weak but on wednesday i know i will be proven wrong :) its like i want them to happen where i can see it but at the same time im afraid? i dunno. ive never been confronted with evidence of the Lords power and i really am qt excited to see it :)

anyway dex din come to sch today :( he had some pilot test... i missed u dex!!! haha... see now u have to pay ur sis! anyway. yst was dinesh's birthday! so i baked cookies for him haha... and it was nice! tho cindy was bad and say taste like mothballs. i was VERY HURT. anyway i did my natfa too!! amazing haha... and i actually passed all thanks to MADHURI the wonderful girl hu taught me how to jump properly haha... wow shes amazing ok! :) and mr chan was like abit shocked at my happiness after i passed sbj... oh and one more thing... i got B for my run lah! amazing but true! haha... :p